Good news! I FINALLY got a call from BBDO (the NY advertising agency that's handling the FFF commercial). They said that they might have a spot for me. Awesome! It's a Mountain Dew commercial that they said they're very excited about. I'm supposed to go meet with the production agency on Sunday...I'm not sure why I'm meeting with production instead of casting...and I don't know why it's on a Sunday....but I' guess it'll all make sense the day after tomorrow!

Today was a good day...it started out rocky, but ended up really great (yes, great...when's the last time I used that word?!). Everyday that passes brings more distance and more clarity. It's amazing how clouded your mind can be when you're in the midst of a situation...and how you can not even know how clouded you are. I feel like the fog is finally beginning to lift and I'm thinking clearer than I have in months. Even when I think about last week, or even a couple days ago I'm like....wow...I've already come a long way. And I bet next week this time I'll be like Wow! I've really come a long way! And a month from now I may be a different person, or maybe the same person just improved (hopefully!). I took a moment a prayed for my ex and his mistress today...and let me tell ya, I didn't think I'd be doing That anytime soon...if ever! It wasn't easy and I had to take a loooong pause to think of what to say...lol. I just prayed that God's will be done in their lives and that God build up their weak places so that their lives could be sources of joy and not pain. Then I prayed that very same prayer for myself. I shed a few tears...but it wasn't that bad. I'm definitely letting go...I think that's progress.