Avail "Target", Danielle Eskanazi Casting. This spot comes with a guarantee of a lot of money. Would be really great to book!

Audition: "Untitled Film" @ Linda Phillips-Palo. Linda called me yesterday directly for this audition. I met her at Actorsite in December. I answered the phone and she was like, "Hi Jillian, this is Linda Palo-Phillips, casting director. I met you a little while ago, do you remember me?" Do I remember YOU?? Thanks for remembering me! I told her yes and she explained the project and we set up an audition time. The audition went well...Linda and her husband Paul were very, very nice...and I could tell from the smile on her face that she was happy she called me in...very cool.

That's good news. A step in the right direction, right? I guess. Everyone says to move forward. Huh...I wonder if people really understand loss. I've had so much recently. It can really be overwhelming...and "move on" is just not so helpful, though I know that my friends are coming from a place of love. So much loss...I'm starting to expect it around every corner...lol. I don't even know how to begin to heal. Well, that's not true. I know that it begins in God, but, I don't know....my heart is just heavy...and empty. Can something be heavy and empty?? I don't know what I'm saying. I'm tired and I don't feel good. I guess I'm just having a moment. I'm sure one of many.