Audition: Dodge @ Sobo Casting. This was a last minute audition but it really worked out b/c both this one and the Target audition were at Castaway, so I got a kinda 2 for 1.

Audition: Target @ Annissa Williams. Thanks to my friend Spence for hooking me up with this audition. I'm already on avail for one of their spots, but it’s good to get in for different role...the more chances the better. I was a little young for the spot; it was actually more for early to mid 30's. It was for a young mom and I auditioned with the most adorable little girl. She was 5 but looked about 3...it was weird cause in a way she looked so much like me...big crazy hair, my complexion, big smile and soooo happy. She ran up and gave me a hug at the end of the audition. Outside I told her mom how great she was and that she was absolutely adorable. As I watched them leave my heart was sooo heavy. Is this really my life?

Happy Valentine's Day to all that celebrate. I was hoping to have a pretty quiet I was really, really hoping not to hear from my ex...but sure enough when I got home from my auditions there was a package outside my door. I really didn't need this today. I looked in the bag and it was a plant of some sort, candy and money for my children. I decided that I couldn't even entertain this foolishness...and I dropped the package off by the dumpster on my way to church.

Met an old friend at church...my church was having a nice V-day program for the young people. It was a good time and nice to catch up with my friend. I had an extra rose and gave him a rose and told him to give it to him mom for v-day. He told that his mom passed away a few weeks ago! He seemed to be doing pretty well...but all of a sudden I just started crying! I couldn't help it. I was like, 'I am so sorry, I'm acting like it was my mama'...lol. He asked me if I was ok...God! Could I be more of a mess?? Maybe I'm just not fit to be a part of society right now. Anyway, I was able to kinda make a joke and end the evening on a positive note...at least I think.