Alright I'm not feeling too well lately. Something's going on with my back!? Really painful...I can't even take a deep breath. Maybe I've been overdoing my workouts...to many spin classes?? Ugh! Anyway, there's too much to do for me to be sick now...gotta suck it up!
This morning was my final wardrobe fitting before we shoot. I was moving really slow due to my back. Marvelyn and Michelle are so cool and have amazing taste. The shoot starts tomorrow...Wish me Luck!!
Audition "Lost Diaries" @ Alyssa Weisberg Casting. I'm not exactly sure what this auditions is...but it's somehow related to the show "LOST". It's a 5 day shoot in Hawaii! I saw my friend Jay Bingham there, he was the reader for my session. He told me that he'd seen that was my picture had been submitted and told Alyssa that she should really bring me in. How cool is that!! I've only met Jay a few times at Actorsite so its awesome that he'd fight for me that way. The audition went really, really well. In fact I got a call back on the spot. Only thing is it's tomorrow, which is also the first day of shooting....eek! I don't even have the call time yet, hopefully I will work it out.
Ok, off to pick up the kids and head to the salon to get my hair done. The kids were so sweet. They saw that I wasn't feeling well and my son rubbed my back...my girl told me I needed to have a spa day...lol. I went to the salon but the stylist was running, really, really, really late. After I waited for like an hour and a half I decided to go wait at my friends house so I could lay down. My friend is soooo sweet. I can be soooo stubborn when I'm not feeling well and I hate to take medicine. But I was in such bad shape that he made me take some pain meds and drink some airborne. Then he rubbed my back with some Icy Hot which kinda helped. Thanks man! I really appreciate ur care and concern. After another hour and a half I got a call that the stylist had finally arrived. Dag, it's like 9pm and all I want to do is sleep! Oh well...again...gotta suck it up. I ended up getting out of the salon at about 12am. It was cool though, and really nice to get my hair washed by someone else for a change! Maybe I'll start getting it done more often. Kim, the stylist, gave me a look of shame when I told her that I hadn't gotten my hair done at a salon since August 2003...LOL. I promised her I'd do better.
Although it was a crazy day, and I'm not feeling great...there's one thing I didn't forget. Today is Dec. 2nd and it has been half a year since my husbands passing away. 6 whole months! I look at my life now and I wonder how you feel about the thing things I'm doing. Whether or not my actions are making you happy. Whether you're ok with certain things. I've been spending a significant amount of time with someone lately (yeah, the same friend who rubbed my back) and I would be straight up lying if I said I didn't feel guily about that sometimes. I often wonder how you feel about that. Does it make you happy to know that someone is looking out for me?? Does it make you angy that such a short time has past and I've allowed someone to get close to me?? Did you ask God to send me someone or are you dissapointed in me?? It's such a complex thing. And I certainly was not anticipating meeting ANYONE for quite some time...if not ever. Life is soooo crazy! I guess more than anything...I just want you to know that the love I have for you will always be there...always. Nothing and no one will ever dimish what we shared. You will live on in heart forever, and that, my love, is just a fact. I pray that you know that. You took such good care of me....and I know you still are... I feel your presence around me and that brings me more joy than I can express. Yo te quiero mucho mi esposo.
This morning was my final wardrobe fitting before we shoot. I was moving really slow due to my back. Marvelyn and Michelle are so cool and have amazing taste. The shoot starts tomorrow...Wish me Luck!!
Audition "Lost Diaries" @ Alyssa Weisberg Casting. I'm not exactly sure what this auditions is...but it's somehow related to the show "LOST". It's a 5 day shoot in Hawaii! I saw my friend Jay Bingham there, he was the reader for my session. He told me that he'd seen that was my picture had been submitted and told Alyssa that she should really bring me in. How cool is that!! I've only met Jay a few times at Actorsite so its awesome that he'd fight for me that way. The audition went really, really well. In fact I got a call back on the spot. Only thing is it's tomorrow, which is also the first day of shooting....eek! I don't even have the call time yet, hopefully I will work it out.
Ok, off to pick up the kids and head to the salon to get my hair done. The kids were so sweet. They saw that I wasn't feeling well and my son rubbed my back...my girl told me I needed to have a spa day...lol. I went to the salon but the stylist was running, really, really, really late. After I waited for like an hour and a half I decided to go wait at my friends house so I could lay down. My friend is soooo sweet. I can be soooo stubborn when I'm not feeling well and I hate to take medicine. But I was in such bad shape that he made me take some pain meds and drink some airborne. Then he rubbed my back with some Icy Hot which kinda helped. Thanks man! I really appreciate ur care and concern. After another hour and a half I got a call that the stylist had finally arrived. Dag, it's like 9pm and all I want to do is sleep! Oh well...again...gotta suck it up. I ended up getting out of the salon at about 12am. It was cool though, and really nice to get my hair washed by someone else for a change! Maybe I'll start getting it done more often. Kim, the stylist, gave me a look of shame when I told her that I hadn't gotten my hair done at a salon since August 2003...LOL. I promised her I'd do better.
Although it was a crazy day, and I'm not feeling great...there's one thing I didn't forget. Today is Dec. 2nd and it has been half a year since my husbands passing away. 6 whole months! I look at my life now and I wonder how you feel about the thing things I'm doing. Whether or not my actions are making you happy. Whether you're ok with certain things. I've been spending a significant amount of time with someone lately (yeah, the same friend who rubbed my back) and I would be straight up lying if I said I didn't feel guily about that sometimes. I often wonder how you feel about that. Does it make you happy to know that someone is looking out for me?? Does it make you angy that such a short time has past and I've allowed someone to get close to me?? Did you ask God to send me someone or are you dissapointed in me?? It's such a complex thing. And I certainly was not anticipating meeting ANYONE for quite some time...if not ever. Life is soooo crazy! I guess more than anything...I just want you to know that the love I have for you will always be there...always. Nothing and no one will ever dimish what we shared. You will live on in heart forever, and that, my love, is just a fact. I pray that you know that. You took such good care of me....and I know you still are... I feel your presence around me and that brings me more joy than I can express. Yo te quiero mucho mi esposo.
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