Aftershock audition @ Pemrick/Fronk Casting. This went well and they are so cool at the office! Hopefully, I'll be back in there for something else in the near future. They also have an open door policy for actors, maybe I'll also try to take advantage of that a little more often.

Today is Dia de Los Muertos and months since E's passing. Wow, five months. I swear it seemed like I was just writing about his four month anniversary. I think its finally starting to be a little more real for me. Like ok, he's really gone. I feel it really sinking in for the first time.
You know, one of the things that has made Efren's death bearable was seeing how his life and death effected everyone around him. For some it brought out tremendous strength and character..others, I think, began to evaluate their lives and how they could be better people. It is comforting to think about what an impact his life and death had on so many people. His life was not in vain.

I know how much I learned being with him through his illness. I learned the power of forgivness (now that's a superpower....forget X-ray vision!), I learned the importance of trying to make the most of each and every day. I learned that if you are lucky enough to have someone to love, and who loves you...that you should NOT waste any of that time, because tomorrow is not promised. I learned that you should say everything you want to say while you have the opportunity. I learned that if you are honest and open that with each other that there's no problem or situation too hard to get through. I learned that if you put your loved one first and give everything you have to them...and they do the same for you...you can withstand anything and your relationship can reach a place that you never even imagined possible.

Powerful lessons, right? I thought so...I thought I had things figured out. But,unfortunately, since that time, I've learned more things.

I've learned that life is much more complicated than the simple lessons I thought I'd learned. I've learned that just because you are open yourself up to people, doesn't mean they'll open themselves up to you. I've learned that just because you're honest about your needs and wants, doesn't mean you'll actually get them. I've learned that not everyone wants to deal with problems openly and honestly, but instead would prefer to discuss hockey or the president, or anything other than the things that needs to be discussed. And I've learned that just because you try to take care of anothers feelings and emotions doesn't mean they'll take care of yours.

Damn.... Just when I thought I had it all figured out.